Today for me has been about mending bridges, first and foremost, spending time with my niece, a week might not seem like a long time, but to me it is, I have been to see her near enough every day since she was born. The second was with my music which I haven't been able to listen to due to my burst ear-drum. And third and finally with someone I lost contact with a long long time ago, not sure exactly how she's going to take it, only time will tell whether or not I get a response.
It always amazes me how fickle relationships can be, any kind of relationship. Friendships are clearly the strongest but even friendships can be lost due to the slip of the tongue. I like to think I always say the right thing, I think carefully before I speak and word it in a way that people can tell, I mean what I say, even when I don't mean it. That's not to say I don't mean everything I say, because I do, but sometimes it's just better to let someone think they're right then to argue about it.
I've never been in really deep trouble... I've been on the brink of it many times over, but on every occassion I've managed to talk my way out of it. At one point it became like a game to me, I loved knowing that I could get around anyone just with the way I spoke to them and explained myself. Especially in relationships, my actions were never as flawless as my words, I did things wrong over and over again and it came down to us being very close to seperating and walking away for good. But each time we'd sit and talk and i'd manage to fix it, until the next time. I eventually got tired of it all though and we did end up over, unfortunately not on good terms.
This lost-friendship however, is different, we were never together, and I never wanted to be, somehow it came down to me taking her side or someone else's. For reasons still unknown to me, I took the other and paid the price for it. I forgot all about the scenario until a little while ago and the stupidity of my actions hit home. Well mistakes are made, and mistakes are there to be rectified.
Now I think I'm gonna go and play Gears Of War, i'm bound to get good at this game someday.