I've spent most of my adult life in a state of disarray. Not really sure where I'm going, not actually caring too much. All in all it's been a very good ride. I've done some good things, I've done some bad things (nothing too bad). There's been new people met, nold people lost. Happyness, misery and everything in between. Regardless of all of that, i've been laughing about it all, no matter how serious. I attribute it to keeping me sane :D I don't really regret much and I feel everything I've ever done has been for the benefit of other people, and towards the end, more for myself.
I got with my ex a long time back, and we've been broken up for just as long. I guess it's the one thing I regret, was getting her to love me like she did and then having to hurt her as I did. I apologised many times, throughout the years. No matter how I tried to put it, she refused to believe that it was something I had to do, and several times over the years, I thought about trying again with her, even though I know it would never have worked. It was something I did have to do and I know she was deeply upset and wounded by the ordeal, but in reality there was nothing I could do about it. We've been in touch a little since we broke up, switching between talking alot, and arguing about ish. Now things are different though. We can finally be friends without having that whole get back together thing in the air. She's strictly off limits now and even if she was to end her relationship, I'd not be able to bring myself to get at her like that. w00t. I've been told that she's moved on. Everything is finally looking up, in the sense that it was all good, now it's all great and I have nothing to worry about anymore. I am officially care-free and I can't find the words to describe what I mean, but damnit, it feeeels GOOOOOOOOOOOOD. I'm not tied down by any issues of old. To quote an old song whoms name I can't remember "the only way is up... baby".
My sister gets the keys to her house tomorrow, not sure what's gonna happen after that, but It won't be long before I'm moving out. I'm just happy to be getting my own bed again. When I go up, I'll scout the area for some wireless internets and soon as I can, I'll hook myself up with a connection and jump on Live, and catch up with all you people whom I've not been able to game with. The rest of my life plan I'll beging work on from there. Life plan, haha, awesome, as if anything I have ever done has been mapped out.
I couldn't live without my Nieces, plain and simple. They're everything to me. Most people are irrelevant and I have trouble caring. But it's all good in the end. I have earned the right not to care I'd say, so all good.
There's always something I want to say but I forget, all good.
Have a nice day one and all, thank you and stay chill
INCREASED FONT TO AID THE ELDERLY - Apparently it was still too small!