I spent all of yesterday being phoned and texted from my ex trying to sort things out. The thought of even discussing us getting back together is making me feel urgh. I really don't want to be with her anymore, and I've told her numerous times. But she's not getting it and she's telling me that she'll try harder to not be jealous and be more of what I want and stop being so paranoid. But It's not about that, I just don't want to be in a relationship, nothing to do with her. The fact that she believes there is a reason for my sudden switch is also adding to the issue. She wants answers I can't give her and won't stop questioning me, it's making me uncomfortable, so I'm avoiding her, which is just making her think that I won't talk to her because if I do I'll change my mind and want her back. That is far from the truth but she's not seeing sense or reason.
I've been playing Gears Of War this morning. I cannot get the hang of the game no matter how much I try, it's in a league of it's own. I think I killed 1 person during the whole time I was playing, I did down another but that was it. I'm not gonna bother with it now, I'll just stick to Rainbow, which I'm playing as I write this (currently dead)
I spent a large portion of last night thinking things over, not just problems but trying to recall other things, like where I could've put something I lost a long time ago. I tend to do that alot, and usually it gives me results. A couple of months ago I broke my Ipod, I bought another MP3 player and lost it within a day. I looked everywhere and couldn't find it, so I gave up. Then whilst I was sat listening to music, I began thinking about where I could've put it. I ended up looking for it again and found it within five minutes in a place I'd searched many times before but seemed to have overlooked.
I also locked myself out of my laptop early last year and couldn't remember the password. I tried for months to remember it or find where I had it written down, but to no avail. I eventually just gave up and put it in my wardrobe and left it to gather dust. Then after a while I decided to try again, the battery was completely dead so I charged it up a little to find that the system had reset the time and needed to be set again, which allowed me to set up a new admin. account and delete the old one, keeping all the old files, music and videos I had on it. It was just a random thought that ended up helping me. The are so many occassions where things like that have happened. It's weird.
There are so many wireless connections around here. There are about four of them just around here. The problem lies with the unlocked ones. There are two, the one I'm using and the one next door, previously it had been locked and for some reason it's not anymore. The Netgear WGE111 thing I use to get my 360 to connect to my wireless network keeps connecting to nextdoors. I've tried to access the WGE111 through my PC but it wasn't working. I spent all yesterday trying to get it to work, initially not knowing what the problem was. This morning I worked it out, and found the solution. When I need to connect to my wirless router, I restart the one nextdoor so it's only mine available. It seems like a lot of hassle to do, but it's the only way I can make it work. While I was at it I changed the admnin. password of their router so I could change the settings accordingly.
I like to read other people's blogs on GTP from time to time. I like seeing how people structure their paragraphs and sentences. I think it shows a little insight into how the person is. I like to keep my writing in paragraphs and sentences but I don't think it's in any other way structured. Infact I find it's a random mess of thoughts and wording. Almost pointless to read.