AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I'm really annoyed now. I started writing and then a pop-up caused my I.E. to error and closed all the pages. It does it alot, I'm not sure why, I don't care, I just want it sorted. I've looked it up but couldn't find anything to help me. Anyway, I started writing again, and as I got near the end it happened again. Yes I know, this is not the first time, or second... or tenth time that I've lost my blog because I didn't use an external program to write it with, but still, it's annoying none-the-less. Lesson learned though, i'm using WordPad, and then I'll paste it out and pray it can keep I.E. open long enough to save it.
I'm getting crap from my ex again, i'm starting to lose it, I don't know what her motivation is, what did I do that was so great in that she just will NOT leave me alone?!?! As I recall it, I was quite an ass from time to time... well more often than not. I don't mean in a mean way, but in a "I think I'm funny, but I'm not, I've just insulted you" kinda way. I amused myself with my humour, so no regrets. I'm not sure what her goal is, maybe she's trying some kind of mind game on me, if she tells me she wants me enough, I'll think I should go back to her or something... I don't know... I don't care... I'm getting to the point where i'm just going to start deleting the texts instead of reading them, not answer the phone, and pray to god that she does not come to my door. If that did happen, i'd be sure to grab my camera whilst I'm running, make a whole blair witch style escape scene, were I fall over something and then hide in a small spot and hope she doesn't find me. Why do exs who don't want you to break up with them get their friend to talk to you? If YOU can't talk me round what chance does your friend? "aw... fix it, she really l*ves you" YES, I know.. but I don't l*ve her... she'll get over it. I read it back to me and I come off as heartless.. but I'm not, far from it. It had to be done, I did it, you deal with it.
I love stand up comedy, I think it's the greatest thing on TV. What can be better than spending a few hours laughing your ass off? I was watching Lee Evans last night. It was showing his best bits from his many tours, and damn that is one funny dude. If you don't know who Lee Evans is, he's the guy who played 'Tucker' in 'There's Something About Mary' If you still don't know who he is... my mind draws a blank, he's just a comedian. I would love to be a stand up comedian, but I'm just not funny enough, and I can't be doing with all that attention. When too many people notice me I get nervous and then I end up doing something stupid, like walking into a house, and I don't mean through the door, yeah... that actually happened, thing came out of nowhere. It also impairs my judgement. "This icy hill looks dangerous, I should go round, wait, I'll look stupid going all the way back to get around, forget it, I'll just slide down." I hit the floor so hard I practically bounced back to my feet, okay, quick look around.. "yep, people saw me.. casually walk away, play it cool" The amount of times I've done something so I don't look like an idiot, but ended up looking like an idiot anyway is countless, it must be a character trait because I can't help it. Kinda... went off topic there... anyway, the best comedian EVER has to be Eddie Murphy, Raw and Delirious are classics. There are alot of other comedians who take bits from those, and from Richard Pryor and try to pass them off as their own, but fail.
History as a whole is an interesting thing, I love reading about past events, I'm not a World War fanatic or anything, but it does interest me how simple changes in strategies or ideas could have changed the whole course of history, especially in Europe. I don't know what else to say on the subject :-| I'm a leave it at that I guess. If something comes up I'll be sure to add.