I never know how to start these things, It's even harder to word things in an understandable way. I've had alot of issues in my life, both directly and indirectly. On a whole it's been pretty good, i've not had any serious problem, no major loss in my life since I was six years old, and everything kinda fell together and worked out for me all my life. I see alot of people I know having some issues that they can't deal with on their own, but don't want to talk about them. I see others with no real problems but acting like everything bad happens to them, tryin' to pull sympathy, trying to make people feel sorry for them.
Then there are people who manipulate others, and the people on the recieving end of the manipulation who just never seem to learn, even when they say they have. I tend to sit back and watch all this unfold around me. It's like one huge drama and everyone is just overexaggerating. I listen to alot of people, their sides of the story, their problems, and I used to help, throw in my opinion, and fixed things on numerous occassions, calmed down situations before they've got out of hand. I stopped tryin' to help people lately, mostly because it's falling on deaf ears.
It amazes me how far the drama reaches, a little issue can become a big thing, and everyone knows about it, and the big things seem to be between select people, all with a different side to how things started.
Ah. i'm just rambling on, no point going into details as to what is on my mind, it'd just get complicated.
I treat the future like I treat the past, I don't think about it too much. I'm happy with how things are now. The way I look at it, you look at the past and think "i loved it back then, when **** happened or when me and *** did *** every weekend" and in my eyes, if you look back at the past like that then you're not entirely happy with your life as it is. That's just my outlook, it doesn't matter where I am in 10years, as long as I'm living comfortably, not extravagant.. just comfortable and happy.